...and bad news keep comming

Well, I got a phone call from my consultant yesterday confirming that what they took from my scalp last week was iindeed malignant. I looks like my cancer is now going where it wants in my body and things are likely to only get worst.


Tomorrow is the day when I'm gonna see him and some kind of a decision has to be made. I'm shitting myself already because whatever its gonna be its not nice and...


I'm suppose to be strong
I'm suppose to hold on
I'm suppose to pretend 
there is nothing wrong.


They tell me I'm dying.
They tell me I'm close.
They tell me my choices.
But which one to choose?


There are so many things
I wish I could see.
How do you decide
when to go free.

10.27.05 (7:08 am)   [edit]

The big C is back

Well, i didn't write anything for a while as i moved and was without internet and didn't have much free time as i was back at work. Things have changed again. The cancer is back growing like crazy in my lungs and it looks like it spread again as i had a lump on my head removed. Still don't know the results of the histology but my oncologist wasn't very positive.


Well, i'm going to see him again on Friday when he should have results of all the tests they did over the last week. I wonder wad he wants to do. Anyway, I'm trying not to think about it.


Cheers

10.26.05 (3:47 pm)   [edit]