So as you now I'm at home today. It was pretty interesting in the hospital.When I got there the nurse warned me that it's not gonna be very pleasant as they have a lot o really sick people on the ward. Hmm, it was pretty noisy the first night, next day one of them got better, one of them got quiet and one of them died. Well, that was the 3rd person that died on the ward while was in hospital. I didn't even know that he was dead (even thou he was lying about 5 m away) He had so much morphene in him that he wouldn't be able to make noise even if he wanted to.

Otherwise it was ok, they are saying again that maybe I will have a surgery on my lungs so now I just gotta wait because they are saying different things every week.

I feel pretty good, can't wait to finish the chemo. If there is bed I should start my 6th (last for now) cycle of chemo tomorrow.

Anyway, cheers

Rob

So I'm back enjoying my day and a half or so in my own bed. I took a tube home because I finished early and jeez it wasn't the greatest idea to travel by walking/tube/bus half hour after I was disconnected from the drip. But I made it and I'm at home after all.

Well I'm still breathless from my journey so till nex time.

Cheers

well, I have made plans for the weekend and they called me this morning that I'm supposed to get to hospital ASAP. There go my plans. I'm sure they're doing it on purpose.

Anyway, I'll be back in 5 days or so, nice and yellow from th 'lovely' chemo.

Cheers

The good old NHS is never gonna stop suprising me. I still don't have a bed in hospital and there is another 16 people onn the waiting list so it's not gonna happen this week. Good thing is that I'll have a weekend at home, bad thing is that I gotta wait.

Apparently the only way to overcome the problem is to have 2 patients per bed (welcome to developed world?) but that would only be fun if it was a maternity ward or something not an onclogy unit for dirty men.

Anyway, I just keep eating and sleeping and waiting and...

I'm running out of things to do, if any of you got some good useful ideas then let me know. Maybe I should learn knitting.

Cheers

It seem they really don't want me in hospital. There is no bed available for me as everybody is stuck there and nobody is going home so my chemo is now 2 days behind. Well, maybe tomorrow.

At least i got another day at home to enjoy. What's pissing me of that it is now postponing the day when I should be finished with this treatment (at least for now). Hmm, so I got my bag packed and every morning I'm ready to go...and do my 5 days of jail time in the comfort of my hospital bed, chained to my drip stand and eating dog food.

It's not all that bad. Since they took my central line out of my hand I got holes in every single vain on my hands but I'm quite glad I don't have the line anymore as it was always in my way.

Ok, later.

I'm supposed to be going back to hospital today so I'm ejoying my "last proper breakfest" for this week. I'm not looking forward to go, hope that there will be some different patients 'cause last week was terribly depressing.

Anyway, not much new....as always. Yesterday we drove through half a London to go to a big shop to buy a toester and in the whole shop they had only one that we liked and it was a last one so they didn't wanna sell it to us. At the end we drove all the way back home and bought the same one in the local store. I wouln't believe what a mission it can be to buy a stupid toester in London suburbs.

Well, till later

I got a day or 2 at home again befor heading back to hospital. It wasn't very nice this time. I was bored more than usual and everybody around was old and .... Puke on the floor, shit all over toilet and people falling out of beds. Not much fun after a day or so (nervermind a week) :(

So I'm glad to have my day off. My hair is falling out again, I thought it's gonna stay this time. The eyebrows that grew back are still holding up.

Well, thats me and my news for today. It's bloody freezing in London and it seems that winter is on its way and the heaters will have to go on soon.

Anyway, cheers 'till next time

I'm still at home, waiting for a bed in the hospital. Got my new memory card for my mobile today. I managed to squeeze 57 mp3s onto my phone so I'm happy now. Something to keep me entertained in the hospital.

The weather is terrible, windy, one minute raining and another is sunny. I wonder if i'll end up going to hospital today or not.

I'm feeling like there is nothing wrong with me at the moment. Anyway...

:)

Its pretty cold today. I'm at home and I'm not sure if i'll go to hospital today or not. I wouldn't mind going tomorrow. I hate waiting when i dont't know what i'm doing next. Anyway. it's all good,

Really don't feel like writing anymore.

I'm feeling bit more energetic and I was hoping I'll go for a walk today and if somebody was listening to my thoughts - the weather has turned shite.

Well, I can't have everything... Not the best of mornings today :(

My computer is still switching off even though everything seems to work ok and the toeaster broke this morning. That the news from the mad house. I got few more days before my long strech in hospital. My hair is growing back and my eyebrows are comming back as well, I'm impressed.

Went to physio today. I got list of excercises again, now I just have to do them. Still feeling without energy but at least there is plenty of food in the fridge and the weather is good. Gotta make the most of it because on monday i'm going back to hospital and I'll be there for almost 3 weeks.

My computer is still playing around and the troubleshooting steps that Dell sent me in order to find out whats wrong are rather complicated and I don't feel like doing all the stuff, I'm not a Hardwere person anyway.

Ok, cheers for now

I need ENERGY. I couldn't get out of bed today again. Feel like I'm awake but my body is sleping and I just got a call that I got physio tomorrow, will be interesting.

Anyway, I feel ok, otherwise. I'm getting pins and needles in my toes and fingers which is pissing me of but thats one of the side effects - just hope its not gonna stay like that.

Well, I'm gonna finish my Green Tea :) and probably back to bed.

Haven't got much energy today. It's a nice day in london again but i think i'll spend it in bed. My computer is starting to give me hard time and keeps switching off so I might go quite for a while if it breaks...

Anyway, hope not cause i don't feel like looking for someone to fix it.

It's been a beautiful day. Sun shining, not too hot...and it's friday. Not that it makes any difference for me since I got friday every day and saturday and sunday.

My stomach is starting to feel the chemo but the antisickness pills seem to be doing the trick at the moment. We had a very nice dinner last night. Otherwise not much new, as usual.

So I finaly finished my first part of the 5th cycle. My neutrophils that for almost 2 weeks were 0.2 have picked up after the boosting injections to pretty impressive 25.someting so the chemo went ahead and I've been given more injections to take home so I'm ready for next chemo. I hope that my bones are not gonna be as sore now as last week from these injections because when the bone marrow is overproducing white cells my spine feels like somebody is pulling on each side and I don't know what to do with myself.

I'm glad that this was a short chemo because there was a lot of pukers in hospital. I woke up at 3am and I think every patient (except for me and maybe other 2 that were not getting chemo) was vomitting and making a lot of noise. It was next to impossible to fall a sleep again.

I'm at home now until 13 september and I'm hoping that I will feel pretty good. I also had another chest x-ray, I think it was probably 25th this year. I'm really glad that I have enough fat on my stomach to put all these injections into otherwise I would have to look for space somewhere else and it would be more difficult to do it my self.

Well, thats for today. Our ebay auctions are not going very well :( at the moment.

Ok, cheers